Stress!

Ok, so that was a funny video about stress. Here’s the thing: I am incredibly stressed out. While writing this post, I’ve had to force myself to stop clenching my shoulders at least three times.

Four. Just had to do it again.

People usually don’t realize how difficult this job is, especially when it’s on top of another job. What’s more, I’m not even getting paid (yet)! I’ve considered opening a Patreon account, but I’m pretty sure no one would subscribe yet, so I wouldn’t get a monthly check. Granted, I’m not in this for the money, but it’s nice when your work is rewarded.

It’s gotten to the point where my husband is forcing me to get in the bathtub for an hour once a week. I love getting in the tub, but I have so little time to do it.

Oddly enough, my blood pressure is perfect. The doctor is always really impressed when I come in and they take my blood pressure.

I think what I need to do is go on a vacation. An actual vacation this time, where I don’t have to do anything. No weddings, no cleaning, no packing to move, nothing. Just sitting in a chair outside reading, sleeping as much as I want to, playing board games, going hiking, fishing, anything.

I’m so exhausted and I feel I’m getting to the point of a burn-out. It worries me, because this is something I really want to do as my career, but if I burn out, this won’t happen. I’ve wondered if I started out too ambitious with three blog posts a week in addition to the other writing I need to do, but now it’s expected I do three posts. I may cut back to one a week soon if I think that would be more beneficial to not only the quality of this blog, but to my mental and physical health.

So people, pray for me, send healing vibes, or whatever you do when you care about someone. I need it.